Biz trip to Beijing 3/23-3/28

Nice trip in Beijing, feels like having a short vacation. Visited 故宮、北海公園、景山、王府井, and Josephine's place. ;) Though I'm still tired from the trip but there is no time for good rest right now. Got back to work today and many things there I need to work on.

It is interesting that this trip somewhat makes a milestone in my career life; first time overseas training, first time meeting colleagues in PRC IW Test team, receiving surprising recognition, and starting to take different task in position. Some of these things did not happen because of this trip. They just happened to occurr during this time. All these combination makes this trip even more special.

What I am more grateful about is that I got to talk with my boss more than usual. I thank God, for this good team and His putting me here. I am really blessed to find this nice and interesting job as my first position. I cannot help but keep thinking how thankful I should be, to all the team members I have met, and for all the reasons that He put me here.

Recently, I strongly feel that I am still so very junior in this job. There are lots of things I have to learn about. My view is still very limited and narrow, couldn't see things from a greater point of view. This I really need to work on more.

PS. 出國沒花到太多錢不過被老闆生火了一台相機... sony W or T 系列，待研究。 :p

外公，我們天上見

(抱怨一下，ff 3.6 跟偽蝦米不合啦，害我只好用 IE...)

繼奶奶 2007 年趁我還在國外的時候就走了之後，外公昨天也過世了，兩個人都是民國 7 年生的，真的算是相當長壽了。看著在病床邊哭得很傷心的小表弟，心裡有個感覺：人經過了這樣的事應該都是會長大會改變的吧？不知道他懂得多少，了解多少；但希望他明白，外公只是先去了天上，是個更美好的地方，以後我們都還要再相見的，雖然傷心難過，還是要帶著盼望。

其實外公一直都算是很硬朗，雖然大病纏身已經幾十年了，都靠自己的毅力控制得很好，那天跌倒撞傷了頭部還是騎腳踏車出門為了準備孫子們的壓歲錢。從受了傷到過世不到一個星期，中間其實都沒什麼反應了，看著他走得安詳，心裡其實還滿安慰的。本來這幾天是教會出遊的，不過在知道外公發生意外以後其實我就有點決定要留在家不去了，奶奶過世時的遺憾，不想要再重來一次，不管能不能幫上什麼忙，至少能夠跟家人在一起，盡一點自己的心力。

外公，我知道我們會在天上再見的，你現在應該很輕鬆很快樂吧？謝謝你，外公。 :)

最近物慾變高了耶....

繼第一次參與百貨公司週年慶之後, 前幾個星期又跟了學妹的團中團買了三個包包--雖然平均一個只要 250 而且我還沒有拿到, 最近又開始想要續約來支 iPhone 了... 我很少這麼想要一個對我來說應該歸類在奢侈品的東西耶, 當然也不是說買了也用不上, 只是手機對我來說一直就只是可以打電話傳簡訊就好了, 連相機我都嫌他多餘, 沒想到現在竟然真的滿想要去辦的, 我自己都覺得驚訝 XD

Win7 上市了！

還記得幾個月前開始還在用 RC 的時候就一直在想說等 Win7 上市要來買新電腦；時間過很快，現在 Win7 上市了，新電腦也買了… XD

雖然說不完全干我的事，但看到一堆新聞報導說 Win7 受好評還是滿幫 Windows team 高興的；不過在一堆 Win7 的正面新聞裡看到說 Office 2010 下個月 Beta 要出來了就很緊張啊啊啊啊…

非常地既期待又怕受傷害。

Mom got a car accident, again

Mom had a car accident last Thu. Don't know how that happened but thank God she wasn't injured seriously. Glad I made the decision to go back to see her. Feels that I had one step forward in the relationship with my family. There were not much words but just can feel the love among us. Though my parents sometimes complaint about each other (privately to me), I can still tell that there's love. :)

It was a nice scene to see dad helping mom out with the grapes. Just a simple move, but I like that.

you are all right; this is who I am

最近跟上司們聊了天，聽了一些他們對我的想法，本來有些不是很懂的東西，今天聽了老闆的解釋覺得其實也滿有道理的，綜合起來我的確就是個好強怕輸不容易在人家面前示弱的人，示弱不一定就是說跟人家比起來是好還是差，而是我不會輕易讓人家看到我軟弱的一面。

當然他們會這樣覺得，因為我本來就是這樣，連在家人面前都是不開心也不會吭一聲，從不知道什麼時候開始就是這樣了，說不定小學的時候就已經開始了。

所以是我自己把身邊的人隔開來的吧，在外面設了一道結界，沒有幾個人進得來，也沒有希望別人進來，雖然從外面也許還是可以把我看得滿清楚的，但這道結界以內就不是這麼容易進來。

我也不知道為什麼我這麼武裝自己，但我知道不只是因為我好強而已，也不是怕什麼，就是不習慣和別人之間沒有一段距離(的樣子)；不太會表達自己的內心想法；很在意別人對自己的看法，可是有時候也不期望別人全盤了解我這個人；但我的確也覺得有的時候我又太冷漠，我也很不喜歡自己這個樣子。

還是其實每個人都是這樣呢？ XD